Monday, September 9, 2013

our little arrow

preschool 
So this happened today.

We sent our boy off to his very first day of preschool. 

Josiah woke early and was ready to go by 7:30, a full 40 minutes before we had to pull out of the driveway. The smile didn't leave his face as he marched around the house checking his backpack, approving his lunch, and announcing It's my school day! five hundred and seventy-two times.

With his hand in mine, we walked through the school doors and down the long hallway to his classroom. He stood on his tip toes to hang his hoodie and backpack in his locker (He has a true blue locker, y'all!) and then stood in line clutching his Spider Man lunch bag in his hands. 

He was so brave. Confident. Happy. Excited. 

We kissed and hugged and he gave me the sweetest grin and wave before he followed his teacher into his room. I peeked into the room and caught of glimpse of him skipping over to the puzzle table and then I turned and walked away, letting the tears fall that I'd been holding in all morning. 

Oh my heart, friends. This school stuff tough on a mama. Like ball-your-eyes-out-in-the-parking-lot-and-then-cry-your-face-off-at-home tough. I've spent nearly every second of the last four years with my boy and now he's going to be away from me 3 mornings a week.

Let's just cut to the chase. I don't want to share my kid. 

He's mine and mine alone!

Except he's not.

He has a greater purpose than being my little boy forever. 

When Josh and I were married, our wedding text was Psalm 127 which talks of children being like arrows in the hands of a warrior. The Lord has entrusted and blessed us with one precious arrow. We have been shaping him with our words, actions, reactions, choices, and, most importantly, with the Word of God. Josiah was uniquely made by The Creator and it's now our joy and responsibility to aim him and fashion him for a life beyond the walls of our home. 

Arrows are meant to fly.

So today our little arrow leaves our grasp a bit. He's not going far and we certainly aren't done shaping him yet, but we let him go with a prayer in our hearts and a few tears in our eyes. 

We pray that the love of Christ would guide him and keep him. 

We pray that he is kind, humble, generous and brave. 

We pray that he flies straight and with purpose.

Letting go is so hard, but what a comfort knowing that Jesus is with him. Always. 

We're so proud of our little arrow. 



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18 comments:

  1. Seems just like yesterday for Phil and me. Enjoy each day, moment or I should say second. And hang on for the ride it just goes so fast.

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    1. You and Phil always make me smile!

      It's mind boggling how fast it goes. My boy is almost five. FIVE!!!

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  2. he is so precious, rach!
    seeing my kids grow up so quickly makes my heart ache a little(or a lot), but knowing that it's His plan calms my soul. :)
    it also help me to soak it up and try to savor every moment.
    xoxo
    HUGS!

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    1. Savoring like crazy. Love you, friend!! xo

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  3. Just wait for Kindergarten! :)

    I've learned with my kids that they are not only a gift to me, but a gift to the world when I share them. I love seeing others be blessed by my kids. My bold little first grader has already told all her friends in her class about Jesus. They are stronger than us many times! Hope Si has a wonderful preschool year!

    www.ourheart-n-seoul.com

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    1. A gift to the world! YES. Love that. It brings me such joy to see my boy blessing others.

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  4. Awww. It sure is tough. Sorry it is so hard on you, but YAY that he seems pretty at peace with the change.

    Is it just me, but are kids' backpacks GIGANTIC these days??!!

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    1. GIGANTIC is right. Guess who carries it half the time?? :)

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  5. So hard to believe! And so hard sometimes to remember that they are HIS and he loves them perfectly. Such a handsome dude...hope it's a great year!

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    1. Yes, my mama mind forgets sometimes that there is someone who loves my boy even more than me. How AMAZING is His love?!! Mind blowing.

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  6. Awww... Sweetness. Gorgeous photos, and equally beautiful words. He's going to do fabulous! And so are you, Mama, once you find your footing. Promise. :)

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    1. Thanks, girl. Cheers to a happy school year!

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  7. I am sure this was a hard day for you, but I'm not surprised that Si totally rocked preschool! These photos are just awesome :)

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    1. It WAS hard!! But what joy to see Si LOVING school. :)

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  8. So cute, Rachel! Seeing how big he is ... I can't help but thinking about your journey to get that precious little man! :)

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    1. Thank you, Daphne! It was such an incredible journey. Can't believe it's been over FIVE years since we started it all. Such fun to share it with y'all in this space!

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  9. I love the arrow analogy! Wishing Josiah a great school year ahead!

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    1. Thank you, Krista!! I hope sweet Alex has a happy year!

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